“From as early as 11 years old, I was already self-harming, usually hitting myself and then making excuses for having black eyes, etc. By the age of 16 I was cutting. I’m now 53 and still cutting. It’s a coping mechanism, not an ideal method but it’s helped me through difficult times. When I used to work and things got too much, I’d often go to the toilets to cut and release the pressure. I don’t think anyone can actually understand it unless you are also a self-harmer. My worst scars are my wrists, which do embarrass me, they are very big and required stitches, yet I still went to work the next day.
Because I’m a chronic self-harmer, it’s can be particularly difficult in the summer months; I’ve never liked to take my children swimming because I feel I am being judged.
Some people who I’ve encountered on my journey use vitamin E cream and some people have gone as far as getting them tattooed over. In some cases, foundation can help hide the scars. Luckily, I have never been asked about my obvious scars that I don’t hide; it would be pretty rude for people to do so. Early on, I used to say I dropped a piece of glass or made up some other excuse. However, over time I’ve managed to look at them as all the times I’ve survived, not something to be ashamed of.”
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